sorry

about the lack of posts... i don't know what's going on really, i'm just feeling down all the time.
i feel like i should be doing work and i'm putting it off, but i don't.
i feel like this summer is going to suck, or that i'm going to waste it waiting for people to get back from holidays and waiting for everyone to be up for doing something.
i feel like music can't solve everything anymore, which scares me.
i feel like problems that i'm not going to put on the internet aren't going away.
and most of all i feel really alone when i'm on my own and when i'm with other people too. when they come, i just want to be alone, but when they're gone i need someone to be with.
maybe i just need someone new?
i don't know.

not that you care, or anything. or maybe you do?